12/2/07

3:28 AM.

So much going on right now. Basically, I have only 2 and a half weeks left until winter break (and my glorious return home to Portland), which is fantastic... except the amount of stuff I have to do before then is insane.

Basically I have a final project due in my screenwriting and production classes, which essentially means I need to bang out a new short film. This new short film is also needed as part of my application to Art Center and Cal Arts, which I guess I haven't even mentioned until now. Basically, I'm trying to get the hell out of here a year early. Regardless of what happens, after I graduate next year I plan to move to California. But I'm honestly desperate enough that I'd ideally like to transfer, despite only having one year left. So I'm applying to Art Center in Pasadena, and Cal Arts which is also just outside of LA.

Anyways, this new short needs to get done. And I have like no time left. I suppose I'm at fault for waiting until the last minute, but I haven't been procrastinating really. At least not in the traditional sense lol. I've literally had an extremely hard time committing to a single idea to pursue. This whole year I've struggled to really be inspired, and its frustrating because its not like I'm feeling lazy... I've been yearning to create, but my brain has been in this crazy mental block all year. The one breakthrough I had this year was getting the first draft of "The Sun & The Sea" out of my system, which is a film that I plan to shoot next semester. I was concentrating on that for a while (and still am, got a lot more drafts to go), and kind of before I knew it I found myself where I am right now. I can't do "The Sun & The Sea" this semester (especially in 2 weeks lol) obviously, due to the length of it and the planning it requires. So I have to create something new.

I've come up with stuff, thrown it away, come up with new stuff, fallen out of love with it, come up with more new stuff, realized it wouldn't be possible... finally I think I've got something I can make happen, but still, I'm just now writing it so no matter how you slice it this is gonna be a miracle to pull off lol.

On top of that, I've got papers that I have to write for other classes, and essays I have to do for Art Center and Cal Arts applications... Its going to be a stressful and frazzled next 2 and a half weeks, but getting on that airplane knowing I'm on my way home home is going to be the most incredible feeling ever.